Healing Takes Time

Today is Tuesday, August 29, 2023 and it’s been a few days now that my mood hasn’t really been that great. I just feel like there’s a lot going on and I’m having a hard time processing it all. My Daily Care program at PMR ended last Thursday and that has made me feel unsure about what’s to come in regards to my exercise routine moving forward. We tapered down my cortisone medication yesterday and I’m hoping and praying my CK levels don’t come up. The kids will be going back to school really soon and before I know it all their extra curricular activities will be starting as well…Back to the grind. I’ve been really consumed by friend’s nephew who’s in critical condition in the ICU as I mentioned in a previous post…My heart goes out to him and his family. It’s just a lot…

Yesterday I went with my sister as her guest to the gym that she recently joined. She wanted me to try it out and see what I think, and possibly consider joining it as a motivation to get me to go and do my daily exercise program there. The last time I was actively a member at a gym was over 15 years ago! Since then, I may have done a group class here or there but in general I’ve preferred to do my workouts at home. So you could say that I was pretty impressed with what I saw when we entered the facility…State of the art equipment, nicely designed exercise rooms for spinning, aerial yoga, Pilates, yoga, cardio, strength training and most importantly, a lovely pool waiting for me to get into it. I did all my water exercises that I learned from my PT sessions at PMR and completed my workout in 30 minutes. It was a nice change to my usual routine these past couple of months.

I just finished my weekly Zoom therapy session and it was a pretty heave one today. As I mentioned, I’ve been quite emotional lately…We talked about how I’ve been feeling and what could be triggering it. She helped me realize that what I’ve gone through was extremely traumatic and that it was only normal for me to be feeling this way I feel…I’m grieving what I went through and what I continue to go through. Healing takes time…ان شاء الله خير يا رب.

اللهم أبدل حزني وهمي بالراحة والرضا والسعادة يا أرحم الراحمين.