More Time Off

Today is Tuesday, August 1, 2023 and I can’t believe we’re in the month of August already. I really, really, really hoped I’d wake up feeling better today…And I thought I was for a second there. I even managed to shower and feel a little refreshed…But then it set in…exhaustion, headache, fatigue, and let’s not forget super emotional. A part of me was definitely emotional this morning because my eldest daughter traveled for a soccer camp with her team and will be gone for the next two weeks (tear). I’m so happy for her and we’re very proud of her, but I’m truly going to miss her, again. I debated whether I should go to PMR or not but after much thought I decided against it. I was feeling dizzy and my body was drained. I messaged my doctor to tell her how I felt and she told me it would be best for me to do a COVID swab and to go to my local clinic and have a doctor examine me. I really didn’t feel like going but I pulled myself together and went. After a few questions and a brief examination the doctor told me that I most likely have a virus and he requested a CBC to be done. Once the result came out I sent it to my doctor who said, “Lymphocyte count is slightly low which can be seen with a viral infection, but otherwise good. I would recommend to rest for today and tomorrow and I will re-assess you on Thursday when you’re coming to the nutrition appointment”. Thankfully the COVID swab I did was negative so I might have some virus but it’s not COVID! I’ve been in bed resting since then. I messaged my therapist to postpone today’s Zoom therapy session because I wasn’t feeling up to it. She immediately replied by saying she completely understands but now is the time I need support so if I can make it to the session that would be great. She was right, now is the time I needed support the most…So I messaged her and told her I’ll see her online at 3:00 pm. By the time the session was over we were both glad we didn’t postpone it. I’ve come a long way with regards to the therapy sessions but I know I still have a long way to go. I’m hoping and praying tomorrow will be a better day.

آللهم أخرجني من حولي إلى حولك ومن عزمي إلى عزمك ومن ضعفي إلى قوّتك ومن انكساري إلى عزّتك ومن ضيق اختياري إلى براح إرادتك.